Friday, March 14, 2014

A Humble Request for Help



A lot of people keep telling me to finish school, get a good job, and make lots of money, and they seem incapable of understanding why I'm not motivated to do exactly that, as if these things were driven by the fundamental mechanisms of the universe.

I keep telling people to seek cooperation, show kindness indiscriminately, and to constantly try to better the world for themselves and others, and I'm incapable of understanding why they're not motivated to do exactly that, because these things are driven by the fundamental mechanisms of the universe.

A number of people have said that I'm going to change the world, and although I appreciate the sentiment, whenever they say that, I know they're wrong.  The problem is not that I doubt myself, but a simple matter of how their phrasing reveals the imminent failure, because instead of talking about what I'm doing, they should be joining in, saying, "Let's change the world."  I can't change the world, but we can.  One man can't change everyone; that's for everyone to do.

In truth, I'm terrified of a world where we'd rather sell each other out, poisoning the other's water or letting the other drown in poverty because we can't be asked to make any simple sacrifice of wealth, when in reality we're sacrificing the wealth of art, technology, and knowledge that these people could produce if we let them.  It seems a simple idea, but really why should I believe that we're capable of understanding something so simple when we still haven't figured out how to stop shaking fists or pointing fingers at people based on how they look, what faith they follow, or who they love?

And I know I'm not the only one who feels the way I do, and neither are these ideas all that new, but it terrifies me even more that this knowledge is available and it's not being used.  Maybe we're too accustomed to nodding in agreement before going about our lives while we wait for someone else to change everything, letting the conversation fade away without accomplishing anything real.  Hell, maybe we even try to be better people.  Yet we let things keep going as they are even though "All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing."  Even though we may not commit evils ourselves, if we let them persist, we cannot win.

And so, every day I struggle to figure out how to convince others to see what seems to me simply fundamental information about the world, like trying to explain colors to the blind.  I try to figure out how to effect change, where so many others have done the same to little avail.  And I'm forced to wonder, am I really the person we should let try to change the world?  My desk is covered with an army of Lego figures, there's a good probability I won't put on pants for the next couple days, and I recently threw myself down some stairs during a Nerf battle.  I'm probably not the man for the job.  I'm only trying to do what I can because I believe it's how things should be, and, moreover, I don't see enough others doing what needs to be done.

Perhaps, most importantly, don't let the conversation die.  No matter how good of a person you are, it won't matter if you're the only one.  Spread the word.  This needs to be a dialogue, not a lecture.  I obviously don't have all the answers, and I don't expect anyone else to.  If you like what I have to say, share it, respond to it, or do anything to further it.

And, please, don't tell me I'm going to change the world.  Help me change it.  I obviously need the help.

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